omfg
hello friends.
i don’t even know where to start or what to say. my mind is just about to explode.
dear person #1 - i like you. but only a little bit. but you’re amazing & i wish you would just believe me when i say it. 90v5n7tew[0g i dunno what to do about you, you’re so wonderful to me, but there’s just someone else i like more. that does not mean in any way that you are any less wonderful though! <3
dear person #2 - i love you to death, & you’re like. one of my bestfriends. we’ve been through so much together. & i hope that we’re friends for a long time, i know that we can get annoyed with eachother at times, but overcoming those little things is what makes it an even better friendship. i love that you can help me with all my problems, & i love being there for you, to help you with your problems. but right now. everyone that’s involved in your problems is coming to me to help them out, & you’re coming to me to help you out, & i feel like i’m obligated to fix everyone’s shit, but it’s just too much stress for me. so.. after i talk to a certain person about what they should do about you, i think i just gotta stop trying to help everyone out with you. i’ll always be here to listen to your problems & give you advice & everything, i just don’t think i can be involved in it anymore. i let everything get to me & just get so stressed, i don’t wanna have a breakdown. i’ve had enough of those. but i still love you all the same, you lovely human being!
dear person #3 - stop worrying about it, don’t try & rush anything. it’ll all turn out how it’s supposed to.
dear person #4 - i’m sorry, you’re so sweet, but, you’re not for me. i feel bad about it but i can’t control how i feel about people.
dear person #5 - yes i mentioned you in the first one.. i like you. & i don’t even know how to elaborate on that. i just, like you,.. &.. fuck. i dunno, sometimes i try & convince myself not to. because. i’m really scared to like someone & get hurt again. because, that’s all that has EVER happened when i’ve liked someone. i just get hurt. every. single. time. it has never, not once, turned out good. i’m so afraid of love. no. i’m afraid of not being loved back.
dear person #6 - you are the most amazing of all! i can just be happy when i’m with you, & there is absolutely NO drama or stress with you, just happiness. i fucking love you, & i love that we’re as close friends as we are. you seriously don’t even have to do anything to make me happy, aside from being there. i love seeing yo’ fayce, i just take one look at you & i wanna tackle you & just hug ya. heheheh, you’re beautiful in any way possible. inside & out, i think you might just be one of the most amazing people on this planet!
dear person #7 - oh my. i wish i could see you more often than i do. you really know how to relate to me, & i love our deep conversations. it clears my mind.
dear person #8 - what the fuck do you want from me? you treat me like shit for SO long. & now just expect me to drop it all. i think the reason why i’m actually trying to forget about it & move on & be friends, is because i’m still inlove with you. ya, now you guys know. i’m still inlove with this piece of shit. why? i have no fucking idea. you ruined my life. you ruined everything. you tore me to pieces. you ripped out my fucking heart. you better stop dickin’ around if you want to be friends..
dear person #9 - stop making me feel like i’m not welcome in my own home. it hurts.
dear everyone - just stop expecting so much from me & overestimating me. i’m not as great of a person, or as special as you think. i’m just me. i’m more self-concious than any of you would ever imagine. telling me not to be is not going to change my mind. do NOT trust me with your secrets anymore because i will always tell them to other people. i can’t help it. i have many flaws & that is one of them. please never do something to me that i don’t deserve, because it ruins me. yes i used to be depressed & cut & shit, & not eat for days on end. i don’t wanna go back to that. stop making my life so miserable with all this bullshit drama. please. i hate it. i love love love all these new friends, & all the people i’ve been hanging out with recently, but sometimes, it’s too much for me. if i have to keep dealing with this shit, i’m gunna just fuck off & not talk to anyone again, & just hangout with my mamabear. cause she’s the only one who has never or will never make me feel upset or bad or anything for any reason whatsoever. i just want what everyone else wants. to love & to be loved. but. that got fucked up for me. lots of what i’m saying might make no sense, & it might just sound fucked up or like it’s coming out of nowhere, & trust me it is. my brain is just exploding & i can’t get anything straight. so here you are. what the fuck.
